Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
its the beginning of another new year. time passes so fast, one more sem and we'll all become working adults. when we're students, we always complain about school work stressing us out. let's take a step back and think, in what way will working life be any better? be it work politics, horrendous working hrs, clambering up the corporate ladder (perhaps even using others as yr stepping stone). NO, i dont think working life is anyth to look fwd to. however, it is also a symbol of financial independence :) tho it may not be much, it definitely feels gd to be able to stop asking yr parents for allowance.
as for family, i'm really at a loss. just had another heated argument with my mum. she complains that i do not go out with her, that i wld spend hrs hanging out w friends but not spare a thot for the family at all. but, has she asked herself, is there a reason why it is so? if our family cld communicate and go out tgt without any arguments along the way, look up to the sky, perhaps you'll see a blue moon. my parents can quarrel over whether to take cab or public trannsport home o__o so sometimes, bro and i and mum will go out tgt, 'abandoning' my dad cos he cant walk much. dont you think thats SAD. what are we children for, if all the pain gone thru to bring us up translates into nothing, not even company in his old age. are we filial children? i dare not say we are. nowadays, i often wake up to hear my mum nagging at me. really spoils the day, no matter how bright or sunny the weather may be outside. i wished i had a happy family, i wish i cld communicate better with my parents, i wished we cld go out tgt like other happy families and enjoy a simple meal tgt, is that too much to ask?
on a happier note, i'm going to taiwan this semester for exch! just received the dhl express: a big cardboard envelope which contains JUST the admission letter. no details of courses, exams, when we can register for courses and what nots. during times like this, i'm thankful, very thankful that i'm a singaporean. simply cant tolerate all these inefficiencies.
new yr resolutions? i wanna get a driving license! :D feeling more and more anti social these days, a year ago maybe, i wld have glady gone for oac night cycling, but now i'd rather sit at home and nua, instead of going out to meet these friends, and to spend the night out creating memories. oh wells, may this feeling pass soon.
been eons since i last came here. its always been a place for me to vent my frustrations. so you wont see me coming here unless i feel really very cooped up, but i'm glad that i've this avenue at least :) really makes me feel so much better after penning my thots down.
happy new yr to all! :D
aintbeensober signed off at 4:11 AM
Friday, September 11, 2009
another winter day
HMMMMMMMMM o.o dunno what's wrg w me lately. all the unexplainable moodswings, being so irritable all the times confusing i knw cos you nvr knw whats on my mind haha i just realised that the above 3 lines start w abc. COOL :D ughs, back to main topic sometimes i really dont knw why i'm behaving the way i am so spoilt, irritating and a real pest >< hating sch an all the hi-bye friends the nvrending catching up for sch work the fact i hvn gotten over my fear of presentations tt i dont ever exercise and do crazy stuff anymore WHERE IS MY LIFE! i want it back! but, the world shld stop revolving ard me me me. stop complaining huiwen get over it soooooooon :)
on a brighter note, got to try the legendary double choc muffins :D they're yummy! but i'm sure i can make nicer ones! (like real) time traveller's wife was a rlly nice show i secretly love to watch touching shows esp those tt makes me cry HAHA. what a sadist right! it must be really scary to live in a world knowing when is the exact moment you're gonna die, when yr loved ones are gonna leave you, and to knw everyth thats gonna happen in the future, yet be powerless to do anyth, to change anyth abt it. okay gotta go edit our slides for 306 so lijia can post it! haha major revamp, since we got almost everyth wrg >< WHOOOOOOOOPS.
aintbeensober signed off at 7:55 AM
another winter day
HMMMMMMMMM o.o dunno what's wrg w me lately. all the unexplainable moodswings, being so irritable all the times confusing i knw cos you nvr knw whats on my mind haha i just realised that the above 3 lines start w abc. COOL :D ughs, back to main topic sometimes i really dont knw why i'm behaving the way i am so spoilt, irritating and a real pest >< hating sch an all the hi-bye friends the nvrending catching up for sch work the fact i hvn gotten over my fear of presentations tt i dont ever exercise and do crazy stuff anymore WHERE IS MY LIFE! i want it back! but, the world shld stop revolving ard me me me. stop complaining huiwen get over it soooooooon :)
on a brighter note, got to try the legendary double choc muffins :D they're yummy! but i'm sure i can make nicer ones! (like real) time traveller's wife was a rlly nice show i secretly love to watch touching shows esp those tt makes me cry HAHA. what a sadist right! it must be really scary to live in a world knowing when is the exact moment you're gonna die, when yr loved ones are gonna leave you, and to knw everyth thats gonna happen in the future, yet be powerless to do anyth, to change anyth abt it. okay gotta go edit our slides for 306 so lijia can post it! haha major revamp, since we got almost everyth wrg >< WHOOOOOOOOPS.
aintbeensober signed off at 7:55 AM
another winter day
HMMMMMMMMM o.o dunno what's wrg w me lately. all the unexplainable moodswings, being so irritable all the times confusing i knw cos you nvr knw whats on my mind haha i just realised that the above 3 lines start w abc. COOL :D ughs, back to main topic sometimes i really dont knw why i'm behaving the way i am so spoilt, irritating and a real pest >< hating sch an all the hi-bye friends the nvrending catching up for sch work the fact i hvn gotten over my fear of presentations tt i dont ever exercise and do crazy stuff anymore WHERE IS MY LIFE! i want it back! but, the world shld stop revolving ard me me me. stop complaining huiwen get over it soooooooon :)
on a brighter note, got to try the legendary double choc muffins :D they're yummy! but i'm sure i can make nicer ones! (like real) time traveller's wife was a rlly nice show i secretly love to watch touching shows esp those tt makes me cry HAHA. what a sadist right! it must be really scary to live in a world knowing when is the exact moment you're gonna die, when yr loved ones are gonna leave you, and to knw everyth thats gonna happen in the future, yet be powerless to do anyth, to change anyth abt it. okay gotta go edit our slides for 306 so lijia can post it! haha major revamp, since we got almost everyth wrg >< WHOOOOOOOOPS.
aintbeensober signed off at 7:55 AM
Sunday, September 6, 2009
RANT
whenever i need a place to release all these pent up frustrations when i feel like there's no one willing to listen when i dont feel like confiding in anyone you are my only source to let out all these negative emotions so thankyou to have you my blog. cos you dont judge you dont question you listen :)
aintbeensober signed off at 7:31 AM
am i really wrong? :(
promises arent meant to be broken i know. but is it really wrong to meet him one-on-one for possibly the last few times, bfr he flies off to us for a good three years? :O dont like being caught in between dont understand what has he got to fear, but perhaps i hvn put myself into his shoes, maybe i shld try and be more sensitive. but, i really dont like being restricted. walked past many petshops tdy. saw cute birds, hamsters, fishes! felt like having a pet all of a sudden. but then again. i'm such a san fen zhong re du person whimsical. better not.
aintbeensober signed off at 7:25 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
no more 100%!
HAHAHA not that i dont wanna show you! but only got 3 posts here, and they were so emo i cldnt bear to see it. hahaha makes me feel really stupid so i deleted it. HAHA and the first post here is to youuu, so pls be honoured! XD haha i shall find time to blog more and stop being lazy!
